Lunatic World

20,21,22/May/2008 was my 1st summer vacation with my friends in Redang Island.. Remember that Jaz 1st time asking me to go, I was thinking to reject her but  goodness I didn’t, if not I will regret my whole life, because we really really enjoy this time summer vacation..
We start our journey on 19th by taking 10pm Bus to Kuala Terenganu have to take more 6 hours to arrive there.. So we have a short rest at Kuantan bus station and we have a very very early breakfast at there(actually juz around 2 o 3am only so is supper).. During my journey, my bro was call me and told me that there was a earthquake at Indo at the same time,so maybe will have tsunami coz recently many accidents happen and at the place he live also feel something(actually he is in cyber).. That I totally shock, but what to do,  I already half way to Redang, so he just told me to be careful and seldom go snorkeling..
Then when we arrived  KT is only 5am++ and we have to go to the company in charge office  to wait(coz the ferry we took is 9am),so we just went outside around the ofice have a walk.. While we took a walk there, suddenly start raining,"ohh shit" the 1st thing that I think was the thing my bro juz told me.. But goodness that when we arrived Redang the rain stopped, and the wave there is not that big, the sea is just peace enough.. We are so excited  and wish can go and play, Jaz, Jo, and I after get change then we just quickly finish our lunch and get started the whole day activity.. Luckily in the 1st day while we practice snorkeling we get to know a beach boy there, and he had bring us go to deep sea take a look o many many kinds of fish and deep sea animals..
On the 2nd day of snorkeling, is really lucky that 2 the beach boys was taking only Jaz and Me(Jo also invited, but she prefer sunbathing) went snorkeling to see papa shark and turtle.. That really a nice experience..
2 nights at Redang, we was thinking that can enjoy the beach party there, but 1st nite still ok, only the song a bit old, then 2nd nite worst, coz the song is bad although is a latest song,but remix not nice..
Jaz and me mostly are snorkeling, 1 thing we regret so much is we didn’t take any photo while we snorkeling.. Beside, there got a lots more activities that we didn’t do also, like banana boat, scuba driving, build sand castle, n more.. Jaz, Jo n I are planning to go back again.. So REDANG ISLAND WAITING FOR US, WE WILL BE THERE AGAIN!!^^
Last, dun 4get to have a look of my Redang photo in my profile..^^

New life, new school, new friend..
After this month, i will get my new life again, a whole new life..
Don’t know can I handed all this thing o not..
Just do my best, now I just don’t care what kind this world izit..
I just want to be myself.. Hope I can get myself back..
Is a long time I didn’t update my blog.. Just no mood to write..
now i juz hope after all bad things happen.. I juz hope after this can write all the happy things inside here.. Wish me luck in my new life…^^

Bad bAD BaD bAd… The worst thing in my life.. I fail my STPM..
Why? Why is me..? Why bad luck still following me?
I don’t want everything to be the best, I just want to be just ok like that..
No mood, totally losf my mood… I hate this feeling.. I hate bad luck..
Don’t really know what to do..
Don’t have any work can really really explain my feeling…
I juz feel Hopeless.. PLEASE!!!!!!!! PLEASE GOD,please give me same luck; just few, just a bit luck pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am going to be insane soon….
This is too much for me..
Am I treat people too good or too nice…
WHY!!
Why I always never say NO to people..?
Why I always dunnoe how to say No..?
Why I always think everyone is believable..?
Why I always believe people believe in me..?
Why I always trust people..?
Why I always dunnoe how to do..?
WHY!!!!
Now I feel like everyone is unbelievable..
I dunnoe how I can trust people again..
I really dunnoe… Even though myself oso din believe myself d..
I dunnoe why I still din want to find work..
I dunnoe what I waiting for..
O maybe i juz wait until my result out..
C how is it.. Then juz think what to do..
Dunnoe dunnoe dunnoe.. Really dunnoe..

Do I did a correct decision..?
Do I have to continue doing what I thinking now..?
Am I have to forget everything I done before..?
Do anything I done n learn in the past is useless..?
What actually I should be thinking and concentrate on..?
Do I should put my concentrate on my work..?
O just concentrate preparing continue my study with waiting my STPM result..?
I know I have to continue my study in U, but honestly i really had lost my confident in my STPM..
I understand why dad always scare about us when we start working part time, I know he is scare about us that when we start working; we are get in touch with those working people n concentrate on working n will slowly think continue study are not that important.. I admit that in a short time I was thinking like that, but now I am not..
Do I have to change my principle of how I treat the people i know..?
Am I not good in distinguish a person personality..?

For me everyone is my friend as long as I know you, you know me..
I wont categorize in classmate, schoolmate, o colleague, just friends..
Now I am just lost in a middle of no way.. Dunnoe what should I do now..
I am lost in my work..
I am lost in my study..(Hope not)..
I am lost in choosing friend…
I AM LOSTTTTTTT……  (T_T)

feel sad? complicated? no mood? no energy?
really don’t know want to use what word to describe my feeling now..
why so complicated.. i just want to make money.. just want to work in a place with have a happy environment.. what should i do now.. resign? NO! I would not leave before i make the money from this company..
AAAAAhhhhh… I am going to be a crazy workaholic soon..
N really really wish me luck.. I need more support..

Long time din write blog d.. New year 2008.. Now I’m working d.. In a English language center, is happy tat can find a job, is happy tat can met sum new ppl new frenz… But what unhappy things are de politics in tis center is really really bad.. 1st, is vy stress in this job coz this job juz like your own business, if u don’t get any client mean u will not get your salary,coz the salary is pay by your client.. 2nd, in this center coz hv 2 psyco power senior like to control new man,that really make ppl crazy although i know what they said are correct.. 3rd, my fren, Jazlyn who interview this job together with me, already resign d(coz of de 1st two reason).. So its really really make me feel vy tension.. But however now i giving myself 2 to 3 month to earn as many money as i can and trying to communicate with the two psyco power senior..
so WISH ME LUCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

12,13 n 14 DEC, the trip going 2 genting only wit my 4 best frenz,although only 5 of us but v do really enjoy its.. 1st day going 2 sunway shopping 1st; then going up 2 genting 4 2 days.. The Last day v went 2 times squars n sungai wang shopping.. 3 girls of us was vy vy happy tat can shopping,but coz tat v need 2 rush n our lag is really really pain so in de end din really have shop 4 anything..However thx Jazlyn, chyn, david, eric n others.. thx tat v all taking care each others.. ThxXxXxXxXXXxxxXXxxxxxx……..

04092007 is the happiest day in my whole form 6 life..
Only hv 2 pay RM15,i can enjoy a the happiest time 2gether with my classmate..
Althought is juz a 1 day sch trip to Malaysia Parlimen,but is really really fun..
Really really dunnoe how 2 describe my happiness..
However i will remember this day 4ever..
Thanks the teacher..
Thanks all my frens..
Thanks Ah Fang,San Poh,Jazlyn,Eric,David,Ah Leng,Sheue Chyn,
Thanks…>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
(T.T)….. Really dunnoe hv next time ma….

What mean working partner……
What mean classmate ……
What mean schoolmate ……
What mean friend ……
What the different between working partner and freind…?
What the different between classmate and friend…?
What the different between schoolmate and friend…?
What the different between working partner and classmate or schoolmate..?
What the different…?
Are they all sharing the same things….
No.. For me, they are not!
They all have many different point of views…
I know that is a must..
But why they never realise what answer what comment what support
as a friend, as a classmate, as a schoolmate, as a working partner hope for
when anythings happen n need some comments need support…
Why .. when anythings happen, as a friend,as a classmate,as a schoolmate, as a working partner never try 2 give some needed advise…